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Growing Out My Pixie Haircut – Update!

So you may remember back in June I did a post about growing out my pixie cute.

I originally said I would be doing monthly updates…Well, my apologies as that has not happened. I have had a lot going on in the last few months.

So where is my hair at now?

Well, it is definitely longer than what it was back in June. We are almost at the bob length stage. Hopefully, come December/January we will be sporting a bob.

 Not the most flattering side profile but for the purpose of the update you get the idea of its current length.

So What Have I Been Doing To Help It Grow?

I only trim the neck and take some of the weight out as and when I need to so there are regular trims going on. To condition my hair I have been using a Coconut oil spray on it when it is damp before I blow dry and sometime once I have styled it as I get a few flyaways.

I am at a point where I do need to blow dry and straighten my hair. This isn’t great for growing out short hair but needs must and all that. This is partly why I use the coconut oil spray to help condition my hair and reduce heat damage. I do wash my hair daily which I know you’re not supposed to but I do. The upside to this is your scalp is massaged every day which helps to promote hair growth.

How Long Am I Growing My Hair?

I am aiming to grow my hair past my shoulders This was taken back in the spring of 2010.

So this is the ultimate goal of where I want my hair to end up. It has been a long while since I have had proper long hair and I miss it.

So that’s it for this update, it was just a quick post to say. This is where my hair is at a few months into the growing out process.

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Sam

 

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I’ve Been Adjusting

It’s been a little quiet here lately and I’ll explain why….I’ve been adjusting. I went back to work from maternity leave mid-August. I work mostly evenings so I don’t normally get home until around 9 pm. By which point I’m just too tired to blog.

Logan has gone back to Preschool. This year he is doing four +full days so this has been an adjustment for him. With so much change going on I wanted to have a break from all of it, blogging, studying. I feel now though that it is time to get back on the horse so to speak. So here I am. Ready to catch up with you all.

I’ve a few things lined up for the blog…

  1. Update on growing out my Pixie
  2. From Flab To Fab update
  3. I’m going to be talking about being a role model for my daughter
  4. I’ll also be talking about loving myself

These are just a taster of what I planned.

If there is anything you want me to discuss or share an opinion on, then please let me know. I’m more than happy to chat/write about particular topics. If you’d like to see more mental health posts let me know or more body confidence/self-confidence posts again please let me know and I will get a post out on the topic.

If you’re new to the blog and not sure what the blog is about or what I’m about then you definitely need to read my introduction post

There we have it. This was just a quick post to say, I’m still here and where I’ve been and what to expect coming soon on the blog.

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Sam

 

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Getting Out Of My Head:- Anxiety And Panic Attacks!

I’ve always been open and honest about suffering from Anxiety and Panic Attacks. Unfortunately is it not a topic that is talked about enough, this is also true for all mental health issues. But I want to talk about Anxiety and Panic Attacks.

I Didn’t Always Suffer…

I didn’t always suffer from Anxiety or Panic Attacks. It started around 2008/2009 with my previous relationship. I didn’t realise it at the time but the relationship I was in was a toxic one, one of mental abuse. At the time I didn’t see it, but when I look back I can see I was mentally abused.

My first Panic Attack was bad. My hands flooded with pins and needles and went rigid in a claw like shape. I felt dizzy and couldn’t breathe.

Since then I have only had one really bad attack when I ended up in the back of an ambulance because they weren’t sure if it was a stroke or heart attack because of my symptoms, the whole left side of my body shook uncontrollably, my speech was slurred and I couldn’t hold myself up.

Anxiety grows worse…

My Anxiety has got worse over the last few years especially since my Ectopic pregnancy, it has taken a natural worrier and has turned me into a fearful person who wants/needs to be in control to keep fear at bay. I hate this about myself, I hate that some days my anxiety controls me instead of me controlling it. Anxiety and fear have stopped me from doing things. I want to let go and be free to really enjoy the great things in life but it’s there all the time in the back of my mind.

Since having my daughter and there being more stresses at home with various things. I’m sure everyone stresses about things like money, our home is too small and not having money to move. Add to that the lack of sleep from a toddler who doesn’t always go through the night and a baby teething. All of this plays a part in my Anxiety. I don’t want you to sit there and think that I’m moaning about my life and that I should be grateful because there are people worse off. That’s not what I’m doing. I’m simply sharing what has helped to make my anxiety worse.

What Are My Triggers…

I can’t speak for everyone who suffers from Anxiety and Panic Attacks but I know what my triggers are. Some times  I am able to gain control and other times I can’t.

For me, one of my main triggers is feeling overwhelmed, and it can be about anything going on in my life. for me the only way I can describe it is like there is a fog or a storm going on inside my mind. Sometimes I have to get out of my head to beat it.

It’s Getting Harder And Harder To Control…

Over the last few weeks, I have been finding that my Anxiety is getting harder to control. Even writing this post, bearing my soul, if you like, is giving me Anxiety. It’s an incredibly personal thing to share, unfortunately, it is something that people who do not suffer from it find hard to understand and think it is an easy fix. It is not!

It’s An Uncomfortable Place To Be…

Where I am mentally at the moment is a rather uncomfortable place to be. When I look at myself and into my mind, I feel uncomfortable I feel a need to question my mental health and whether I am at a place where I need help. I have to say this part of the blog is very difficult to write. It’s emotional, it is taking a lot for me to be this honest and to lay this much out on the line. But this is in the hope of self-therapy. In the hope that writing about it and talking about it on the World Wide Web can provide a release. A weight lifted. I don;t know maybe help other people and myself not feel alone.

My husband tries to be understanding and helpful and for the most part, he is. He is a fantastic support and I’m certain if it wasn’t for him I would have a lot more Panic Attacks and be in the depths of depression by now. But there is only so much he is able to do. It ultimately falls on me.

So What Helps…

For me, there are some things that do help, Exercise being one of them. I’m not great at keeping a routine especially with two young children but I am trying. I have found Yoga helps to focus my mind. I know that sounds like a cliché, but it really does help. I love running/walking that for me is a kind of therapy with myself. It forces me to think about/process everything I have not wanted to deal with and just pushed to the back of my mind. I also find Reading a good book helps to take me away from reality and escape for a while. I like to do this before bed. It helps to relax my mind and let me drift off to sleep quicker.

I’m sorry for the long post but it is one of those topics that needs discussing.

If you suffer or suffered from Anxiety please get in touch I would love to hear your story and how you deal with it. please get in touch via the comments or social media.

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Sam

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Growing Out My Pixie Haircut  

In my 30 something years, I have had many different hairstyles. I have had a pixie of some sort maybe 4-5 times now. I’ve had multiple types of bobs and had long hair of varying lengths.

My Hair Was My Thing…

When I was younger my hair was my thing. Good hair was a must. It had to be cut good and it had to be straightened. Since having my son I’ve not had hair longer that just above my shoulders. So it is time to grow my hair LONG!

The Many Styles I Have Had Over The Years…

Throughout my adult year’s I have had a wide range of hairstyles over the years.

I thought I would share some of those with you, and I have to say some of the selfies are a little cringe worthy…

  

These are just some of the hairstyles and colours I have had over the years.

So What Now…

Now I begin growing out my pixie haircut. This will be a long slow process which it always is. You have to grow it out in stages.

Firstly you have to start growing the top layer while maintaining the length around the back of your neck and ears to allow the top to catch up. I normally keep these areas trimmed myself using either scissors or clippers.

Hair Products…

Wherever you look online there are posts that tell you to avoid using heat on your hair and tell you not to overload your hair with products. This is true. Heat damages your hair and can cause breakages, which you don’t want when trying to grow your hair out. I don’t use a hair dryer or hair straighteners at the moment. I haven’t coloured my hair in months.

My hair does need help with the form of hair products but I only tend to use a bit of hair wax and gel. I do also put a coconut oil on my hair to help condition my hair I only use a small amount and I use it every day.

Updates…

I will be posting Monthly updates so that you can see the growth each month. Anything more frequent than that and the growth won’t be as noticeable. So if you are interested in seeing the growth each month please do subscribe so you don’t miss out on the updates.

Sam

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Let Me Introduce Myself To You!

I’d like to start this blog off by introducing myself. I’m a 30 something woman. I have a husband Matt, whom I married back in 2011. We have 2 children together and I have a step-daughter.

The Last 3 Years…

I haven’t had full-job since I had my son 3 years ago. I started to work part-time soon after he turned one. My daughter is 6 months old and has been a dream. I will soon return to work in August.

Studying…

I am currently doing an online course for a Diploma in Digital Marketing. It’s a field that I find interesting especially as we live in a world dominated by the internet and social media. The course is a learn at your own place, which is great considering I have a 3-year-old and a 6-month-old to look after.

What This Blog Is All About…

This blog is about me and my journey to self-discovery. With various things that I have been through with my health and having kids, I feel like I have lost myself along the way. I want to find myself again. I want to be the fun loving carefree woman I used to be.

Blogging isn’t new to me, for the last 2 years I had a “Mummy Blog” but for the last 6 months, I haven’t felt a connection to it. I haven’t wanted to share stories about my kids on there. I wanted to start a fresh blog where I can discover myself. Where the topics I want to write aren’t limited to being child/baby/family related. I want to address the issue’s I have with myself.

So with that, I would like to say a big thank you for taking the time to read this post. Please stick with me as I build my content up. If you enjoyed this and want to read more then, please do subscribe and follow me on here and on my Social Media pages.

I look forward to taking you along on my journey.

Sam.

 

 

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